Counting down to the arrival of my precious baby made me realise something while in the shower today.
I’m now committed to a lifetime of responsibility for another person, a life I have created. And there is no way out of that responsibility, now and for the next 25 years at least.
A scary thought, and suddenly the water from the shower turned cold. I resorted to turning up the temperature of the water in an attempt to warm my soul.
What have I done? What am I putting myself through in life? To be responsible, to love and care and provide for a person whom my blood runs in. Am I up to the challenges ahead? Will I be a good mother? Will my kid love me back?
*Shivers* Too many questions, too few answers. I need some stability to my life. No wonder it’s called unconditional love… Lots to learn yet…